Thursday, September 20, 2007

Small Break in the Absence

It seems like forever since I've been on this venue...but I guess it's almost been a month since I last wrote. It's hard to explain, but I just haven't been able to write...haven't been able to answer comments (I have read and truly appreciate every single one of them and you)!

Life's very busy right now. School has been a success and now I am slowly beginning the process of packing up all my teaching supplies, manuals, textbooks, old workbooks, etc. In amongst life being busy, I've been battling illness again. Even as I write, I'm exhausted and not feeling good. But, I've been thinking a lot lately about the fact that life is a continual building of character and that never takes place if life is always easy.

I've begun penning a gathering of my reflections and that's what I'm going to type in this post. I've been doing a lot of thinking and believe that will continue for quite a while longer...probably until eternity comes ;D. Anyhow, here goes the reflections...

Sometimes in this realm called life, things happen, which cannot always be explained. To some when these things happen, they are completely destroyed and never recover. They are consumed by a victimization which takes over every aspect of their life and it colours every moment that comes from there on in.

To some, they have the blessing of people who never give up on them, regardless of the careless and seemingly wrong decisions they make. To the outside eye, as that barrage of decisions continues to be made, it might seem that the blessing falls on deaf ears. But I believe that blessing always travels with the person, no matter where they go or what they do. And at some point, that blessing will bring light to a darkened mind and a hurting heart. It will at some point speak a deep blessing to the person's heart and will bring their conscience and a voice of the past alive again inside their empty shell called a body.

I think we all have a story to tell and most would be amazed, stunned and blown away if we were to go around a room and share. Most days people try to have each other "pegged", but we fail miserably, because we only see what we are "allowed" to see. We are only privy to the censored picture shows which we individually choose to play.

...I truly believe I am the person I am and stand where I stand today because of a deeply instilled faith system and the power of a parent's love. Because if you were to look at the statistics, I should be as far away as possible from the place I am. The only explanation I can give as to why I'm not, is because my parents never gave up on me. They told me they would never let me go and that they would never quit loving me...