Sunday, December 16, 2007

In His Hand

Hold Me Jesus
(Big Daddy Weave)

Well sometimes my life just don't make sense at all
When the mountain look so big and my faith just seems so small
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my Glory, won't You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul, I swear there must be blisters on my heart
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my Glory, won't You be my Prince of Peace

Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want
Than to take what you give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band is playing this hymn
And your grace rings out so deep it makes my resistance seem so thin
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my Glory, won't you be my Prince of Peace

I'm singing, hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory, won't You be my Prince of Peace
You have been King of my glory, won't You be my Prince of Peace

I don't know about life in your neighborhood, but life here's pretty hectic. We're preparing to house a lot of company, beginning next week and so begins the work of the 'Clean House' :D!
So, my writing will be short. I heard this song a couple of weeks ago and put the lyrics straight into my drafts, because I just loved it and began singing along with it like I'd know it forever. To me, it came as a timely reminder of the season we're in, the love and grace that He represents to each and every person. It also spoke truth about my humanness and the short-comings that come along with that one.

But as I sit here, I'm just enamoured by His love and what it is, to be in the palm of His hand and to be held by Him. That's truly a gift worth celebrating.

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you...And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
(1 Peter 5:6-7, 10)

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Endless Possibilities

Some days I feel so tired,
And I feel like nothing.
In the world's eyes 'nothing' is exactly what I am,
But in Your eyes I'm an endless possibility.

Wipe the slate clean,
And create in me a brand new canvas.
One which You can vividly paint on,
One which will allow for the endless possibilities.

I know I am exactly who I'm supposed to be in Your eyes,
Help me to be that in every day life.
Take away the masks and the fear,
Take away the preconceived notions.

Draw me to your feet,
To be surrendered in Your presence.
To love and worship You,
And simply be totally and completely Yours.

Monday, December 03, 2007

Disruptions of Balance

"Everybody today seems to be in such a terrible rush, anxious for greater developments and greater riches and so on, so that children have very little time for their parents. Parents have very little time for each other, and in the home begins the disruption of peace of the world. "

~ Mother Teresa

I've had this quote saved in my drafts for a long time. It spoke huge amounts of truth when I read it and knew that at some point, I would actually get a chance to write on it a little bit. Being that we're into December, it seemed like a very fitting time to write this post.

I find it amazing that you can tell the month has changed around this time of year. I had to go to the store for some staples this weekend and it was a zoo. If we hadn't have really needed the milk and food, I probably would have fled the building as fast as I could, because it just brings this awful, overwhelming feeling into my body.

But the sad reality is that life is a whole lot busier now than it ever was when I was growing up as a kid. I've been taking time to reflect on this and figure out why. As a family, we're continually working on seeing whether or not we are over-committed, and that at the end of the week, we are keeping God and our family the number priority of our household.

I think in this day and age, that has to be a huge priority of families. When our family gets 'dysfunctional', we look at our balance, because 9 times out of 10, we've not seen each other at all and haven't been home long enough to enjoy the safe haven of our home and the love of our family. And it's very true...if there's not peace at home, then there's not going to be peace in your life and therefore you'll take that lack of peace out into the world.

We continue to speak with our children about the fact there's lots of activities they'd probably love to be in, but you need to have balance in your life and it's never to late to begin that discipline. They are realizing that you need the quiet of those four walls called need the joy and laughter of supper around the table, games played together, cuddling on the couch with popcorn to watch a movie as a family. Those things are all just as important as learning piano, taking swimming, spending time with friends.

The hardest truth as a parent is realizing you might not be always modelling what you're teaching. That's the goal I'm working on the hardest right now. Examining and reflecting on where my time takes that time is allocated out and whether or not it's the correct balance for God, myself and my family.