I ended up finding some quiet on Saturday morning and was able to sit and listen. What brought me to this point? The following question was posed in my devotional book...
"Be silent for more than a moment and listen to what God is speaking to you right now, at this very hour of time. If we recognize that He sometimes even speaks through silence, what is His message to you now?"
So, what was His message to me? A really mixed bag, but a message which spoke a lot of truth and love into my heart. Here's just a sample...
~ You need to slow down and take time to breathe me in, meet with me and truly love me.
~ You need to be true to yourself and who you are. Don't be ashamed or question who I've created you to be or where I've placed you in this world.
~ Know that you are precious and loved in my eyes. You have a very special purpose for being here and it's not completed. It will continue to evolve and grow through the years.
~ Don't lose hope - stay strong in me and never forget that I have a plan in all things - I'm with you every step of the way.
~ Live life through my eyes.
~ You need to give me control of everything.
~ Know and trust that I ultimately know what's best for you.
~ Everything will be revealed in my perfect timing.
It was an amazing time...I didn't say a word for almost an hour and just sat, listening to the wind blow the Autumn leaves, breathing in the crisp fall air and simply waiting in silence to hear the whispers and promptings of God.
"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."