Wednesday, November 29, 2006


passion: strong feeling or emotion

I'm taking a sabbatical for a few days. It seems lately my outlook has turned really dark. I'm probably being perceived as pretty inward focused and 'high' maintenance. If I've given that perception, I apologize from deep within...'cause I haven't meant to be that way.

I've lost 'passion' for life and so many beautiful things it offers...servanthood, simplest and usually joyful things in life, etc. I need to find out where the 'Cinder' I know has went, 'cause the 'Cinder' you've been privy to lately isn't the 'true' me...simply the shell which carries my name right now.

I need to quiet myself and reconnect with God...rekindle the 'passion' I used to have for Him. Find and grab that joy and peace that's been inadvertently thrown away.

"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

~ Matthew 11:28-30 (The Message)


jollybeggar said...

here's an interesting question:
where are you planning to go to find the joy and peace that's been thrown away?

for me, it's kinda like losing my wallet. i can roll along for awhile on the belief that the wallet is, in fact, just misplaced and therefore i needn't cancel credit cards and replace i.d. but eventually i have to either find the thing or go through all the hassle attached to acknowledging that i've lost the thing.

as i go frantically searching (choosing to believe that it's merely misplaced) i have to retrace my steps as far back as the last time i had it.

cinder, how many steps back do you have to retrace? are you going to need an overnight bag?

the choice is yours: find the misplaced or simply begin the process of replacing. count the cost and make the call.

blessings and prayers

Cinder said...

"Where to start is the problem, because nothing begins when it begins and nothing's over when it's over, and everything needs a preface: a preface, a postscript, a chart of simultaneous events. History is a construct, she tells her students. Any point of entry is possible and all choices are arbitrary. Still, there are definitive moments, moments we use as references, because they break our sense of continuity, they change the direction of time. We can look at these events and we can say that after them things were never the same again. They provide beginnings for us, and endings too." (The Robber Bride, Margaret Atwood)

blessings to you and yours...

audrey` said...

Dearest Cinder

Please take care, dearest sis.
Our Lord understands and cares =)