To everyone who's hurting
Will this season ever pass?
You may think you're all alone
So this is another song which passed my path during the past while of rest. I thought I would post it, as I'm tired and not feeling good, so don't have the creative juices to write.
People have been asking what I'm sick with, but honestly, I don't really have an answer. It's feels like the flu which never goes away. A flu which gets worse when I am running around doing all which needs done, which gets worse when I'm feeling under pressure or stress.
In June, I read an article which gave 20 signs of burn-out. I dismissed it, as I'm a stay-at-home mom...there's no way I could suffer from this. I found the symptoms quite interesting. I am again looking through the symptoms...to see where my burn-out number is at, 'cause see, when I did go through and mark off the ones I had in June, I was quite taken aback.
~Unusual mood swings that may include weeping without just cause, anger, or depression
~Paranoia and suspicion
~Weight change, including gain or loss
~Moments of panic and feeling totally overwhelmed
~Fantasizing about dying or running away to get away from the pressure
~Fight-or-flight cycles where you rise up to intimidate and conquer others or run away from difficulties just to avoid them
~Insomnia, including difficulty falling asleep or remaining asleep, which can lead to a reliance on sleeping pills
~Too frequent use of alcohol or tobacco
~High blood pressure
~Comforting yourself with unhealthy foods packed with fat, sugar, and simple carbohydrates
~Change in sexual desire of either noticeable increase or decrease
~Notable ongoing sexual temptation
~Health-related issues such as irritable bowel syndrome, headaches, heart trouble, chronic sickness, and stomach problems including ulcers
~A victim mentality that sees the world as against you and everyone as an enemy to varying degrees
~Shopping sprees and unnecessary financial spending
~Reliance on caffeine to self-medicate
~Children, friends, and loved ones begin to feel like yet another burden
So as I sit right now, I again think about the fact of whether I actually have the 'flu' or not. One good thing which has come out of the Fall...I am continuing to make changes and they are very slowly making a difference.