I know I haven't been blogging nearly as much as I was this time last year. There's lots of reasons for that one. Life is busier and when I do have down time, I sometimes just want to be with my family, listen to music, be quiet, etc. I haven't had the creative juices flowing either, which makes it difficult for me to sit down and write, because I don't like to force writing. There's no real purpose in that for me. I also have been introduced to the world of Facebook and have been spending time there, as I am communicating and reconnecting with a wide variety of people...old friends from school and youth group, other cities/churches we've lived in and been at, some blogging friends and my current friends and family as well.
Hence where this post is going. One of my good friends sent me a very special New Year's eve gift. This message above came to me in a "hatching egg"...an egg which eventually hatches out a gift for you (a reindeer dog...it was really cute)! It was such a powerful message to receive on the eve of a new year. My friend was in leadership with me and knew that I was waiting on God and trying hard to listen for His guidance regarding this leadership. It's also really hard at this time of year to listen for His guidance and word...things seem to be so hectic and loud...we had 13 people at our house this year, which was a blessing to be able to have everyone here for Christmas, but it's also really hard to find a quiet moment to reflect and listen.
Have you ever had a moment where you thought you had heard what God was saying? And you set your eyes on that and grew the resolve to continue on towards this? See, this is what had happened with me. I felt heavily prompted by God that I would be stepping out of leadership of the teen girls group I was co-leading, but I thought I was supposed to finish out the year and step down in June. It made sense and felt right...I discussed it with Mr. Cinder and we seemed to agree on it as well. So that was the decision made...or so I thought.
When I received this message from my friend, I began to wonder about the decision, but then pushed the thought aside and set my eyes back on the original decision. Our leadership team met the night of New Year's day, as we needed to have some things in place for this week coming up. God moved heavily through that meeting...opening my eyes, prompting my heart, having me see things in a completely different light. By the end of the night, I found myself saying, "I would be stepping out of leadership immediately." As soon as those words came out of my mouth, I felt this huge weight lifted off my shoulders. At that point, I truly knew the right decision had been made.
I mentioned to someone that a lot of times at New Year's, I find myself ringing the year in, overburdened, tired, beaten down, etc. But this year has been different. Yes, I've still been tired, but there's an element of that which happens anyhow at this time of the year...I also have been battling illness and tiredness comes along with that. But, I'm actually coming into this year anticipating what He will lead and do. I'm coming into this year resting in His presence and His love...feels like I'm in the palm of His hand.
I have to say today that I'm so very thankful for the people He has placed around me, to do life together and walk alongside each other...and yes, that includes each of you! I'm thankful for the fact people will say it how it is...speak the truth in love...and at the end of the day, you're still good. I'm thankful for the people He's placed around me, who will listen and offer advice only when necessary. At other times, they don't offer advice, but simply pray and allow me to listen for God and figure things out in my own timing.
Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.