Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Masks, Costumes, True Colours

True Colours
(Kalan Porter feat. Theresa Sokyrka)

You with those sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Though I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it
And that darkness inside you makes you feel so small

But I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
Are beautiful like a rainbow

Show me your smile
Don't be unhappy
Can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
Are beautiful
Like a rainbow

You're beautiful
I see your true colors
Just remember
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colors shining throughI see your true colors
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
Are beautiful
Beautiful
Like a rainbow
Like a rainbow

You're beautiful

Your true colors are beautiful

I know this song has been sung by a variety of people, but the version I have is by the Season 2 Canadian Idol finalists. This was a song which I listened to a lot while away on our trip...while I have it playing now on my MP3 player, I can see different places flying by in my head of hill country and coming into Colombo.

This song, along with a bag of Jollybeggar's Sour Skittles, became the inspiration for a sharing time with the children on the last Sunday we were in Sri Lanka. It's interesting for me to see how God works through the simplest of avenues to get His message across. I was given the general direction of the sermon to be given and I had absolutely nothing pop into my head, in terms of speaking with the kids about. Then as I stood on the balcony of our hotel, listening to this song and thinking of the last bag of Sour Skittles available for my use, my head started to flow with ideas. See for me, that's how it comes...I can be completely empty and then in an instance be completely overcome with a head full of ideas and/or visions.

That day I talked with the kids about how looks are sometimes deceiving...the Sour Skittles appear to be "sweets", but when you pop those things in your mouth, you are completely taken by surprise. They make your mouth pucker, because they essentially have a "costume" (or a mask) on...once you get past the cover, you get to the sweet part of the treat and then experience their true colors. We talked that day about how God doesn't want us wearing masks or costumes and that He wants us to live our lives showing our true colors. If we aren't showing our true colors, then we're really not being true to God.

For me it was a really rich time, as I gave it to God and said, "It's about you, not me...work through me and speak what you want spoken!" I was just there as an instrument of voice that day. And as in many aspects of the trip, I took away more than I brought...I told the kids that from now on, whenever I eat Sour Skittles, I will remember them...their faces as they ate them on many occasions, just the innocence which shines through their beautiful faces. I told them that they were like a rainbow to me...just like the Skittles together make up a beautiful rainbow and just like we together make up the body of Christ.

This whole time of sharing with them served as a very poignant reminder to me...if I'm going to tell it to others, then I need to make sure I'm living it. I've lived very far from what my true colors are in many ways for a long time. I've struggled with relationally putting myself out there, inviting people into my home to have pure times of fellowship and make friendships, simply not being ashamed of who I truly am. Part of it is, that when you can't necessarily find people with which you have common areas of life with, it becomes harder to relate to each other. In my life, I often find myself changing to meet the molds of those around me, because it's simply much easier to lose sight of my true colors, than to show them and risk living with loneliness in this life.

I guess the question posed is this? Is it better to live a lonelier life, but be who you truly are than to live a fallacy or only a portion of who you are, instead of allowing people to experience the whole package? I'm going to be trying harder to live out my true colors...it's really easier said than done, but that's my game plan. That's the person my family and people really close to me know and love, and it should be the only Cinder people get to experience, know and love.

As I have began to be more like myself and actually am reaquainting with the "true" me, my head's began to flow with "visions" and is full, where for a while it was really empty. I think that's why I relate so much with this song...when you lose sight of who you are and start living differently, it makes you sad, lonely, crazy and allows life to not be fun and feel really unbearable and sometimes not worth living. I've experienced all those realms and it's now causing to me to sit back and take notice, and to truly think about what I need to change. I cannot express how it feels to have my head "full" again...I love to write down what God places inside and it then becomes a time of deciding what needs to be done with what He brings to me. I will elaborate more later on, but I'm excited about some of the ideas which are great ways of bringing my kids full force into missions here on their mission field and so much more!!

Blessings and love to you as you live out this day and the remainder of this week...God's peace and love be with you!

4 comments:

audrey` said...

I agree with you.
It's so blessed to be accepted and loved for who we're, without putting on any mask.

Jayleigh said...

"God works through the simplest of avenues"

Isn't that fantastic?!? It always amazes me, too.

So glad the Lord is filling you up these days. It probably feels wonderful to feel like He's using you again. Not that He ever stops, but that as humans sometimes we stop letting ourselves.

Blessings on you dear friend. Thank you for sharing this. You have no idea how your stories and thoughts inspire me.

**hugs**

SocietyVs said...

Hi Cinder. Original song was written by Cyndi Lauper in the mid eighties. Was a minor hit at that time.

I really love the story of the skittles and showing our 'true colors'. I think we all fall into the trap of the 'facaude' at times, not something we are proud of. I have noticed we are diverse people (us humans) and we are not neccesarily one simple way or another simple way (we are complex). I love the story and how skittles became a life lesson.

Cinder said...

Audrey ~ It is a true blessing to be accepted and loved for who you truly are. After a lot of hurt from past judgement, I'm trying hard to drop the masks and show my true colors. It's not always easy, but essential if you are to be true to who you are!

Jayleigh ~ It's awesome how He does work through the simplest of avenues. It's funny how life tends to be a roller coaster sometimes, but at the end of the day, I know He's with me and I am trying hard to allow myself to be filled up.

You too are a very big inspiration to me...God bless you ;D **hugs**

Society ~ Mr. Cinder was giving me the low down the other night on Cyndi being the original writer, which I knew from searching around, but I was young enough to be in a UGH...Mini Pops phase!

I am very guilty of falling into the 'facade' at times and I'm definitely not proud of it. Life would be really boring if we were all the same, with the same experiences, pain, joys, etc. It makes us and life complex, but I don't think that's a bad thing...it makes us grow and in the end become stronger.

Skittles...Jollybeggar was always seemed to have a bag of Sour Skittles and I had a 3 pound bag of assorted Rockets. It was a blast to see the kids excited for some "sweets" and to then taste the not so "sweet" stuff!