Tuesday, March 20, 2007

The Journey...

I've found myself listening to more music than ever the past while. Listening in quiet reflection as I take in the words. Praying through some of the songs, especially in times where the words don't come easy. I'm beginning this week off, being able to sing in one on one worship. That's been virtually non-existent in my life the past few months, yet so very essential to how I'm wired.

As I continue this journey of figuring things out and wondering how things took some of the turns they did, I do have to look at the point of getting back to what I know works. Not only getting back to it, but making a pact between God and I, that I won't continue to lose sight of it. I've still got a distance to go in getting there, and really, things might always be a work towards other things.

As for our family, we are still fighting off illness. It seems we barely get all better and another falls ill. I am still on antibiotics, but thankfully all those nasty side effects of medicine have subsided...I'm remembering to use my head when taking my meds, which has helped a lot in making sure the side effects stay away. Am I completely better? I don't even want to wager a guess on that one. I'm going to leave it up to the doctors, because it's really out of my control in many ways. We're surviving and I know I'm feeling His presence in a very strong way this week, even more so than others...that's a small light in life right now. As I've told people, I'm trying hard to not yearn for where I could be, but simply be content with where I am. It's not easy to be content where you are, when that seems to be a low place, but I am realizing that for God to truly work through a situation, that total surrender is essential, so I am working hard towards that for Him.

This song is on my iPod and has been playing constantly...it's my new favorite. If you would like to listen to it, you can hear it here http://www.selahonline.com/...it's powerful and every time I listen to it, I feel His love wash over me and and that helps me to attend to the things I need to.


Glory

by Nichole Nordeman

One day, eyes that are blind will see you clearly
One day all who deny will finally believe
One day hearts made of stone will break in pieces
One day chains, once unbroken, will fall down at Your feet
So we wait
For that one day
Come quickly, we want to see Your…

Glory
Every knee falls down before Thee
Every tongue offers You praise, with every hand raised
Singing Glory
To You and unto You only
We’ll sing Glory to Your name.

One day, voices that lie will all be silenced
One day all that’s divided will be whole again
One day death will retreat, and wave its white flag
One day love will defeat the strongest enemy
So we wait
For that one day
Come quickly, we want to see Your…

Glory
Every knee falls down before Thee
Every tongue offers You praise, with every hand raised
Singing Glory
To You and unto You only
We’ll sing Glory to Your name.

We know not the day or the hour,
or the moments in between
But we know the end of the story…
when we’ll see Your…

Glory
Every knee falls down before Thee
Every tongue offers You praise, with every hand raised
Singing Glory
To You and unto You only
We’ll sing Glory to Your name.

4 comments:

audrey` said...

Dearest Jay

Hello my friend =)
How are you today?

Our Lord is holding your hand.
He is walking with you.
He'll carry you when you're weary.

Take care, dearest sis.
(((HUGS)))

Cinder said...

Hi Audrey,

I'm trying hard to hold my own...somedays it's easier than others.

Yeah, He's right beside me...I'm thinking I might need to ask Him to carry me a while.

You take care too...blessings and ((HUGS)) your way.

Corry said...

(((HUGS))) Jay!

Even though all that you are going through may seem bad, your faith and testimony have a great encouraging impact on those around you!

Prepare for all the blessings coming your way. If they already aren't. :-)

Matthew 25:21
His lord said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.’

You are in my prayers.

God's Grace.

Cinder said...

Thanks Corry! You know, when you're going through something, you tend to lose sight of the fact of the impact you might be having. For me, it's been hard to not buy into the lies that I'm being more of a pest to people than impactful and encouraging.

I'm beginning to curve my vision the way it needs to be and looking for the blessings in even the littlest of spots. That's hugely encouraging in itself.

Thx for the prayers...I honestly can't voice enough how much I appreciate it.

Blessings and (((HUGS))) to you!