Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Blending in and Silent....

Have you ever felt like this guy? So small in such a huge world...so many obstacles and everything else that you don't even know where to go, what to do? That you just want to do all you can to simply 'blend' into your surroundings...go unnoticed, causing the smallest amount of trouble, grief, etc. to those around you.

I've been feeling like this guy for quite a while now. Tried to ignore it, which severely backfired in many ways, shapes and forms. Probably did more damage than good...to me and to countless others around me. Now I simply want to lie low, 'blend' in and have things be as uneventful as possible...at least for a time.

I've really battled what to do with my blog and my blogging 'voice'. I was going to delete it completely, until I could come back stronger, but then I would lose contact with my blogger friends and that's definitely something I don't want to occur. I guess this is my compromise for the time being. A open-ended post, which offers no apparent restart date, but lets you know what's up. Many of you know how to contact me outside of this blog...please do...I would love to catch up and keep in contact. I will drop by every so often to say hi on your blogs and will probably sneak by my own to check the comment box now and then.

I know blogs are often an online journal...mine's a mixture of things, including this avenue. But I guess the bottom line is that sometimes things aren't meant to be voiced through this avenue. And until a time when I feel my voice is stable and strong, I don't want to risk letting it sound on this venue. Yeah, I guess that's all I'm gonna give for an explanation.

Blessings to y'all while I'm silent and we'll see y'all when I come back...


"Family of Jacob, the Lord created you. People of Israel, he formed you. He says, "Do not be afraid. I will set you free. I will send for you by name. You belong to me. You will pass through deep waters. But I will be with you. You will pass through the rivers. But their waters will not sweep over you. You will walk through fire. But you will not be burned. The flames will not harm you. I am the Lord your God. I am the Holy One of Israel. I am the one who saves you. I will give up Egypt to set you free. I will give up Cush and Seba for you. You are priceless to me. I love you and honor you. So I will trade other people for you. I will give up other nations to save your lives. Do not be afraid. I am with you."
~ Isaiah 43:1-5(a)

2 comments:

blackpurl said...

I think we all blog for different reasons. I started when we made our move to Russia to let family and friends know what we were doing on a daily basis. Maybe when you sort out the reason you blog you will feel better about blogging.

Take care!

audrey` said...

Jay dearest.
We love you.
Jesus loves you most =)